Its 10:08 pm
Day three of the writing challenge is now underway. Thank you all for taking the time to not only drop by but also to leave comments. This is quite fun in that respect as I generally don't get many here.
Cranked up another album by the superb Eric Stuart Band....feels great to have some new music floating through the den.
The weather was miserable today,started in a heavy fog which gave way to rain and then it started to get really chilly. And to surprise of no one,its going to snow later on tonight. It will probably be enough for a chuckle and then melt away.
Losing a soulmate can lead to two different roads,either you implode or you endure. You never blossom again,you may have some awesome moments,maybe even find another person to marry/be with but the life you had will never be the same as it was with the person you were chosen to share a life with.
While I have had my moments of pure darkness,of complete hoplessness during this past year,the drive to stay on my two feet is shaped by leaving a legacy for Lori. While I have started a small gesture every month and look to volunteer,I also keep my heart open for folks like us...either a caregiver or someone who also is battling this monster called cancer. I do it on my own terms,my own limitations. I was blessed to help one man who was very sick last year with getting a item he needed for his house.
I observe who uses our wheelchairs and electric carts. I look for the telltale mask of a chemo patient. I want to provide them with quick and friendly service. Often the public has no idea of how much effort it takes for a cancer patient,even with a caregiver,to do even the basic of things. You are often feeling the effects of the chemo you are on and just trying to retain some normal day to day life. I lay awake at night thinking of the places we went to,of how the outings got smaller and smaller as Lori's energy slowly waned. The last trip we took to Target and JCP...in the wheelchair,feeling how much weight she had lost,how easy it was to help her sit in the chair.
These feelings and memories are always with me so when I do see that rare sighting of someone with no hair,of wearing a mask,a wheelchair...I stop what I am doing and go help.
And that is how I met a young lady named Karen today. I saw the mask first and excused myself to my co-worker as I walked over to her. She said she was looking for some light fixtures and asked if I could help. Of course..I looked at her,slightly built,blonde hair and big expressive eyes. She leaned on the cart a little.
As I helped her,I got a fixture that had been buried on the bottom shelf and was dusty. I showed it to her and she out for it. I quietly said "Wait,let me dust it off,you don't to breath that". She said she always nervous around sick people and I said I was very defensive about that myself during the last couple of years. Karen said she had cancer and I said I know. I said I was very protective of my wife when she went through her chemo. She asked me what type of cancer and I told her. She asked if Lori was still alive and I said "Yes,in my heart only" and she understood.
As we went to look at lights on the other side of the department,Karen said she is advanced,she has colon cancer. The doctors say she is a miracle of life,I said yes,those who love life are often the ones who fight the hardest. Her voice caught as she looked at me and said "Cancer has caused me to lose everyone,my fiance,my family...they have all pulled away from me. I said the truth,cancer patients are often pulled away from from friends and family. Divorces are common as people just don't know how to cope. I said it wasn't her fault...and then I offered my phone number if she needed to talk. I don't why I did that..its not like my heart is all strong but it still whispers in my soul to be service to people who need it and I sensed she needed it. Now will she call? I don't know,maybe not....but its there for her if she needs a ear.
After writing about my crazy DVD watching yesterday,I went and watched another episode of Dollar Tree Theater.
Yesterday's movie was called "Red Lights",a suspense thriller starring Cillian Murphy,Sigourney Weaver and Robert DeNiro.
Weaver plays Dr. Margaret Matheson,a brilliant but troubled pyschologist and Murphy is her dedicated assistant,physicist Dr. Tom Buckley,who travel the country debunking so called paranormal events and fake faith healers. DeNiro plays a famed psychic who shot up to fame then disappeared 30 years ago after a clash with a skeptic reporter left the man dead......until now. While Buckley wants to investigate Silver's sudden return,Matheson warns him not to tangle with what could be the real deal.
This is the fun part of bargain bin hunting,for every God awful "Super Sonic" you stumble across,you sometimes come across an exciting little gem like this film. I quite liked this and would recommend it even if you have to hunt for it.
So it looks like I am going to be losing this computer. Seems life Microsoft XP is fading away and they are ending support for this OS. They sent us XP users a notice and when you click on "What to Do Next",they straight are telling you that you are going to have to buy a computer if you wish to stay on line. Wow...I mean I know I have a old computer but I thought it was still perking along pretty well...so now I have to come up with the cash for a new machine. For now I will count my blessings I still have my iPad and will start saving my pennies for a new computer.
Glad to see the Yankees beat the Astros last night!I was getting some unwarranted sprack and even got a "pfffft" sent my way after Houston managed to upset the Yankees the first two games. But when my pal John mentioned "sweep",I knew the Yanks had this. Mentioning "sweep" is a taboo in baseball,you never say that word because the moment you do....well you promptly lose as the Astros did last and tonight. While the Yankees won last night and tonight. Pfffft! to you,Denise!
As you may know,this year marks Derek Jeter's last year as a player. He has played for 20 years and has helped lead the Yankees to 7 World Series,winning five of them. He is the best shortstop to have ever played the game and his career stats are something you normally only see in a video game.
Like Mariano Rivera did last spring,Derek announced his retirement before the season and as part of his last trip around the league,other teams are gifting in honor of his career. That said,what the blue blazes was Houston thinking last night? They gave Derek a nice set of golf clubs but the cowboy hat and pinstripe cowboy boots were a little goofy...no,they were big time goofy. I mean you had weeks to think about this and this was the best you could come up with? A cowboy and pinstripe boots? I just hope Detroit doesn't gift him a car from General Motors!
Well that is day three of my challenge. Thanks for sticking with me so far!
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