Thursday, June 19, 2014

On this,our 10th Anniversary....

Its 5:02


My dearest Lori,
 
     It is our anniversary today.

     It would (is) have been 10 years and I know we would have been together having so much fun doing anything we wanted.
   
     I miss you,I have no words to express how much,only my tears and memories. And wedding hands.
Always the wedding hands.

   In this past year as I try to slowly adjust (and no,time has not "healed" anything) to the weight of not having you here,I am dwelling on what I do have in regards of I was blessed with you for 15 years.

   We made a great couple,you and I. Still do in my eyes. My love for you burns as brightly today as it always has and it will always be that way until God allows us to be reunited again. I live for that day,its my sole drive in life. But I know our journey here still has to go on.

I am trying to make you proud by helping others,of always remembering that kindness matters more then ever. That your sweet gentle spirit will always live through me and I need to keep my heart tender,to keep it as one as we vowed to do 10 years ago.

  I know I am a flawed man,with many mistakes and imperfections in my life. I think God he allowed me at least one moment of perfection when he joined us together.

I love you very much,Cat.  I love you now,tomorrow,forever and beyond (+1)

Happy anniversary my love.


Your loving husband,
   Michael

66 comments:

  1. Sorry for your loss.. but she is always with you!

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  2. Those are very sweet words. So sorry for your loss.

    Michelle F.

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  3. It is my first visit here. I found you via the Ultimate Blog Challenge facebook group. Writing letters is so therapeutic - even when the word "healing" seems completely foreign and almost mocking. I have known such times. Your heart bleeds on this "paper" - and gives permission for the rest of us to feel alongside you, share compassion and if not yet hope, at least a connection. Thank you.

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    1. I hope you will come back and take a deeper journey here and get to know Lori a little more.

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  4. What a lovely letter to her on your anniversary. I'm so sorry for your loss but she will always be in your heart and that's what keeps us close to our lost loved ones.

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  5. Writing letters is very theraputic like Julie mentioned. In college I used to write letters to family / roomates and even if I didn't send them (which I often didn't) just the emotional release of getting my feelings out of my head and into the open was freeing. Your wife sounds like an amazing woman. Sorry she was taken so soon from you.

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    1. I started writing this blog on Facebook but moved it here....and yes,it has helped me quite a bit...thank you for your comment

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  6. What a beautiful letter. I hope you find strength && healing.

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    1. I find strength....but no healing,some wounds are just too deep

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  7. What a beautiful, touching letter. All the best to you

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  8. What a great sweet words, im so sorry for your loss!

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    1. Me too....Lori was a wonderful soul....

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  9. You Are So Sweet, This Is Beautiful Absolutely Beautiful I'm So Very Very sorry For Your Loss!1XOXO

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  10. What a beautiful testament to your wife. I can tell how much she truly meant to you. Happy Anniversary.

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  11. Writing is the best therapy, and talking to close friends who are willing to listen everything. I lost my Mom when I was 15, and I ran away to writing and 2-3 very close friends.

    I am sorry for your loss. It feels like shit, but it gets better in time however the pain will never go away. Carry on!

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    1. Writing has helped me quite a bit in enduring this,I am glad you dropped by

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  12. That was written beautifully. Sorry for your loss.

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  13. That is what every girl wants to hear. Well done so and it is so sweet and sincere.

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  14. Death ends a life, but it does not end a relationship, which struggles on in the survivor's mind toward some resolution which it may never find.Death changes our physical relationship with one another, but dying well can enhance our emotional bond to our beloved. Death changes a relationship, but it need not end it.

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    1. I agree...I am still bonded to my wife and still proudly wear my wedding ring.
      Death may have her but only for a little while....

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  15. Such sweet words, carry her with you always and you will never be without her.

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  16. This is a really sincere letter but I'm sure she'll always be a part of who you are because of the memories you share and how you molded each other.

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  17. Death is a part of life. I think Michael understands that. She is not gone, she is waiting/ I hope your paths cross again in the future. In the mean time, continue to persevere!

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    1. Death is indeed part of life,but when your life is taken prematurely,it makes it extremely painful. And so I endure...

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  18. so sorry to hear about your wife, but such sweet words.

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  19. Sorry for your loss, so much love, beautiful words and while your love burns a piece of her will never leave you

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    1. Agreed....I see her everywhere....

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  20. Your love for her is such a sweet and lovely thing. I'm sorry that she's no longer with you.

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  21. I am so sorry for your lost and I understand the feeling of missing someone we love that we can't be with but we always know that they are here with us because they have been a very precious part of our life.

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    1. Wonderfully stated and I couldn't agree more.

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  22. This brought tears to my eyes. I'm so sorry for your loss. What a wonderful thing to be married to someone you love so much. It really is precious a gift. Sorry she's not with you anymore.

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    1. I cry quite often myself when I think of our struggle and how bravely she faced her cancer...I am very blessed to be married to such a beautiful soul.

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  23. I am just so sorry Michael. There are no words, but please know you are on my mind.-Ashley

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    1. Thank you very much,Ashley....maybe you can do a blog about uterine cancer awareness sometime soon?

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  24. Sorry for your loss. I truly understand how you feel. I am a widow and this summer would have been our 20th wedding anniversary. Hugs to you.

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    1. And I am sorry for yours,Ann. Doesn't it feel just like yesterday every day?

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  25. So sorry for your loss sending out massive prayers and hugs

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  26. It's so scary when life takes a dramatic change.It feel like you're living in a cloud, someone else's life even. Those are the times I wish I knew a real psychic who could let me chat with the dead because "knowing" they're in Heaven and happier than I am doesn't make me miss them less.

    Stay strong, she loved you and someday, no one knows when, it will hurt a little less.

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    1. Thank you Sharon....and we continue to walk forward one step at a time

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  27. Michael, I am so so sorry for your loss. The post you wrote to your wife is beautiful and heartfelt. She will always be in your heart and with you forever. I can tell you miss her deeply. Writing can be therapeutic and it is nice that you are doing that.

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    1. Thank you Patricia and I miss Lori so very much. Writing does help quite a bit.

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  28. It's so hard to lose people that are so close.

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  29. What a beautiful way to remember your loved one! The loss is for us, who were left behind. The ones who left us are better now. And just waiting for us to arrive to be together with them, forever this time.

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    1. Agreed,it is that one hope that sustains us....otherwise,whats the point?

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  30. Michael I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. Thanks for sharing this.

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    1. Thank you for reading it Sandy...

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  31. I am so sorry for your loss. Just try to remember that she is still with you in spirit and you will see her again one day.

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  32. What a beautiful letter and I am so sorry for your loss.

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    1. Thank you Danielle for reading it and commenting

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